After giving myself ample time to think. I really feel that I was too impluse to get her back. Till the extend that I am losing myself.
Maybe it is because the companionship she gave me, the happy/sad times we shared, the intimacy times we had and her interacting with her family. I guess they were all just attachment.
I just want to be myself again. Not going to put myself down for anyone. Never.
I am so glad that it was over.